sleep

I've had a hard time sleeping lately. I sometimes thinj about how much I could accomplish during the time I'm tossing and turning. I think about how much more I could read up and learn about my passion, photography. Sometimes I think I get this great idea to write a romantic letter to alanna letting her know how much I love her. But, nothing ever comes of it. I wonder what having a child will do to this. Will I be able to get up to take care of my son? Will I stay up and study? I know I'm going to have a lot of adjusting to do.

My biggest fear is that I won't be a good father. I guess fear can only push you to be better so I can't think of it as a bad thing. I am glad I have focused on photography over the past several years, it'll make sure I get the opportunity to have great memories captured in a great way. I hope my son gets more creative than me, I hope he is more talentted than me too. I'm sure that's what every parent hopes. Hopefully my son will love music like I do. When I can move the piano to my house, super heavy and no method of transport (or money for movers), I will make sure I start practicing again. Hopefully tthat inspiration will bring joy to my sons life. I can't wait to meet my son and move past the time of anticipation of his arrival. I can't wait to photograph him as a newborn and add that to my family wall. I'll post pix of the wall later. Enjoy life everyone!!!